I do cry.

Assalamualalaikum.
This post are likely related to the last post.
Cry? It happened, I cry really hard after posting the so-malay post few days ago. My typical reason of crying was because I felt stupid. I mean, I should right?  I knew that loving someone are feelings that you can't avoid.You can't also pretend to hate it. But it will be a wasted feeling if you were drag by it. Because you need to remember one thing.

THISSSSS!

Why do I cry?
Do you think I cry because I don't want to forget that someone? No. That's not the reason. I cry because I feel that all this time I've been wasting my time thinking of things I shouldn't even give a thought about. So, that was my lesson and I would try to stay strong and not repeating it. InsyAllah. Some people might not understand what I truly wants to do with the feeling. Actually, it's LETTING GO the FEELING. It means, I would try to ignore the feels. I would kept myself out of the business with that someone. Never think of having any 'feel' towards such kind relationship. Embrace myself as an independent women. Support my friend to ignore any of those feelings too. And, yes, I knew that its not wrong to have that feelings. To let it immersed in your heart. To treat that someone with all kinds that world could give. As long as you know the limit and remain in the straight road to the right path, right way.

BUT,
To my thinking, I don't think that loving someone that is not confirmed yours are great its SUPERB wasted. Seriously, to give world to someone?? Have you ever did that to your friend? Never, right? So why give love to an unsure?

The one thing I am scared of is,

if I actually love or like someone based on what I see and what Satan had decorated for me. The bloom in my heart were blooming strangely and made me fly high. I mean, have you ever felt it with your creator? No, right? So, that love seems wronged to me. It was too strange and I'm afraid I could simply forgot how the love I've been searching to Allah, fade. I didn't and never even want to find that kind of love now, but it simply happen to turn up at this young age of mine. I think Allah is testing me. So, I need a solution. And I found it on my last blog. Alhamdulilah :)


Advice and reminder,
 - Let's not play with fire. It's between the you who burnt or the fire gets bigger.
 - Love our creator first because His the great planner
 - Never get scared of letting go. I've try it and it is a big relieve. Alhamdulillah
 - Think about our parents. Do they like it?
  - Believe in faith. If he is for, he'll be yours. Don't have high hopes on.
 I'm not a love motivator, I, myself are in conflict. I'll share more in next post. InsyAllah.

"And seek you help (from Allah) through patience and prayer; and most surely it is a hard thing, save upon the humble," Al-Baqarah: 45

Wassalam